November 19, 2016

Hello...

It seems like you're holding me down
And it just seems pointless to work this thing out
So what's holding me back?
A lifelong friendship's not worth this
I'll hide this one deep underground

Convenience can comfort you now
But the words that you said
You can never take back
I'm warning you now
When you realize you made a mistake
I'll be sure to kick you while you're down

I gave you this gift
Now I'm here alone and I'm paying for it
Our light's almost out but I'll smile again
The day that you figure out...

I was all that you had

November 6, 2016

Never

I made an effort to reach out
Several times actually
But you chose a different route
Burned that bridge and left without me

Things have changed
And they will never be the same
Never be the same
Never be the same

This heart doesn't work anymore
And it's all your fault
We will never be the same
Never be the same

Showed me no loyalty at all
I don't even know why I care
You pick me up to watch me fall
All this time, you were never there

Things have changed
And they will never be the same
Never be the same
Never be the same

This heart doesn't work anymore
And it's all your fault
We will never be the same
Never be the same

Someday I hope you realize
You let this moment pass you by
All this love, now I agonize
You let, you let this feeling die

Things have changed
And they will never be the same
Never be the same
Never be the same

This heart doesn't work anymore
And it's all your fault
We will never be the same
Never be the same

October 25, 2016

I think I'll be okay

You keep saying you've had enough
And I know just how you feel
You keep it all inside and its nipping at your heels

It's eating you alive
I can see it in your stare
I'd sit with you all night if I thought you'd even care

I've lost track of who I was, some time ago
I thought I figured out which way to go
Now I hate to say that the only thing that's keeping me alive is you
The only thing that's keeping me alive
But I can't say your name
I think I'll be okay

I've had it up to here
With your morbid ways
You're happy being sad and you prove it every day

I've lost track of who I was, some time ago
I thought I figured out which way to go
but now I hate to say the only thing that's keeping me alive is you
The only thing that's keeping me alive
And I can't say your name
I think I'll be okay

You don't want to see the less the polite side of me
Just say your prayers and close your mouth, start curbing what comes out
And find another way to feel important that can't be drank or snorted
Don't call me up to say hello cause I don't want you around when I get home

But now I hate to say the only thing that's keeping me alive is you
The only thing that's keeping me alive
But I can't say your name
I think I'll be okay

October 24, 2016

Someday, someday

Be patient, be tough
Someday, someday
This pain will be
Of use to you

It helps build character
Someday, someday
This pain will be
Of use to you

Someday you'll be
On the other side
Let her go
Someday, someday

October 20, 2016

Shudder

I can’t go on
Deflate the air from both of my lungs

Fears one by one followed me home and became reality
I'm a failure. I'm a freak.
I'm a chip on your shoulder
The last thing you need

Shudder, earth quakes at the thought
Of a life that’s meaningless
And with such a promising past
But you can always count on me
To choke the end

I can’t go on
Deflate the air from both of my lungs
I’ll be gone long before daylight shows its face

Honestly I'm taking big strides
In a race towards normalcy
Where more is more, and less is we
Where love is crap,
Emotion speaks for us all
What’s really right?
Who’s who to say I can survive alone again?
Figured that out the hardest way
The forecast calls for fire
Flames sound nice today

I can’t go on
Deflate the air from both of my lungs
Ill be gone long before daylight shows its face
It's old and worn and it's mouth smiles no more
Well I'm worth my weight in potting soil
Maybe I try too hard to care

I left a note on your bed
I don’t recall what it said
It's something like
“I'm completely miserable and I'm better off dead”