January 8, 2017

It's clear to me...

It's clear to me
That you wrote me off
Given up on me
Thrown in the towel

Tomorrow, as I board the plane
Leaving this place for good
I know we'll never be the same
That much I understood

It's clear to me
What we had is gone
Without regrets or remorse
That you have moved on

So I take this broken heart
Do my best to turn it into art

It's clear to me

December 30, 2016

This is reality

I'm sick of my meaningless life
Where chances pass me by
This is reality

And you might ask why
Nothing's ever how it seems
I think I knew more when I was 13
When did life get so real?

And now I feel like I'm losing my mind
I used to think all the time
Now thinking hurts, and feeling is worse
I liked reality better when it was a dream

December 22, 2016

The Ghost of Saint Valentine

Oh pain.
I'm doing bad
I'm getting answers to some questions
That I never should have asked
And it's getting old
It's decomposing fast
'Cause when I thought it couldn't get much worse
Life stabbed me in the back

I'd rather face the gallows
'Cause nothing matters
And I'll just change my name

There is no love just appetite
And its consequences keep you up at night

Appetite is lust at best
And it's up to us to figure out the rest

I thought that I
Was working towards the truth
Thought if I waited long enough
I'd put this passion to good use
And in a flash
Cut to me with head in hands
In a fight without a cause I am a wounded veteran

I'd rather face the gallows
'Cause nothing matters
And I'll just change my name

There is no love just appetite
And its consequences keep you up at night

Appetite is lust at best
And it's up to us to figure out the rest

It's not right now to lose control the way I do
I am a slave to this. I am a masochist
This one's got whiskers it's as old as ice, it's nothing new
I am a slave to this. I am a masochist

I'd rather face the gallows
'Cause, nothing matters
And I'll just change my name

There is no love just appetite
And it's consequences keep you up at night

Appetite is lust at best
And it's up to us to figure out the rest

December 18, 2016

Still Breathing

I'm like a child looking off in the horizon.
I'm like an ambulance that's turning on the sirens.
Oh, I'm still alive.

I'm like a soldier coming home for the first time.
I dodged a bullet and I walked across a landmine.
Oh, I'm still alive.

Am I bleeding?
Am I bleeding from the storm?
Just shine a light into the wreckage
So far away, away

'Cause I'm still breathing.
'Cause I'm still breathing on my own.
My head's above the rain and roses
Making my way away

'Cause I'm still breathing.
'Cause I'm still breathing on my own.
My head's above the rain and roses
Making my way away
My way to you.

I'm like a junkie tying off for the last time.
I'm like a loser that's betting on his last dime.
Oh, I'm still alive.

I'm like a son that was raised without a father.
I'm like a mother barely keeping it together.
Oh, I'm still alive.

Am I bleeding?
Am I bleeding from the storm?
Just shine a light into the wreckage,
So far away, away

'Cause I'm still breathing.
'Cause I'm still breathing on my own.
My head's above the rain and roses
Making my way away

'Cause I'm still breathing.
'Cause I'm still breathing on my own.
My head's above the rain and roses
Making my way, away, away...

As I walked out on the ledge,
Are you scared to death to live?
I've been running all my life
Just to find a home that's for the restless
And the truth that's in the message
Making my way, away, away

'Cause I'm still breathing.
'Cause I'm still breathing on my own.
My head's above the rain and roses
Making my way away

'Cause I'm still breathing.
'Cause I'm still breathing on my own.
My head's above the rain and roses
Making my way, away

My way to you

But you're not there

November 19, 2016

Hello...

It seems like you're holding me down
And it just seems pointless to work this thing out
So what's holding me back?
A lifelong friendship's not worth this
I'll hide this one deep underground

Convenience can comfort you now
But the words that you said
You can never take back
I'm warning you now
When you realize you made a mistake
I'll be sure to kick you while you're down

I gave you this gift
Now I'm here alone and I'm paying for it
Our light's almost out but I'll smile again
The day that you figure out...

I was all that you had

November 6, 2016

Never

I made an effort to reach out
Several times actually
But you chose a different route
Burned that bridge and left without me

Things have changed
And they will never be the same
Never be the same
Never be the same

This heart doesn't work anymore
And it's all your fault
We will never be the same
Never be the same

Showed me no loyalty at all
I don't even know why I care
You pick me up to watch me fall
All this time, you were never there

Things have changed
And they will never be the same
Never be the same
Never be the same

This heart doesn't work anymore
And it's all your fault
We will never be the same
Never be the same

Someday I hope you realize
You let this moment pass you by
All this love, now I agonize
You let, you let this feeling die

Things have changed
And they will never be the same
Never be the same
Never be the same

This heart doesn't work anymore
And it's all your fault
We will never be the same
Never be the same

October 25, 2016

I think I'll be okay

You keep saying you've had enough
And I know just how you feel
You keep it all inside and its nipping at your heels

It's eating you alive
I can see it in your stare
I'd sit with you all night if I thought you'd even care

I've lost track of who I was, some time ago
I thought I figured out which way to go
Now I hate to say that the only thing that's keeping me alive is you
The only thing that's keeping me alive
But I can't say your name
I think I'll be okay

I've had it up to here
With your morbid ways
You're happy being sad and you prove it every day

I've lost track of who I was, some time ago
I thought I figured out which way to go
but now I hate to say the only thing that's keeping me alive is you
The only thing that's keeping me alive
And I can't say your name
I think I'll be okay

You don't want to see the less the polite side of me
Just say your prayers and close your mouth, start curbing what comes out
And find another way to feel important that can't be drank or snorted
Don't call me up to say hello cause I don't want you around when I get home

But now I hate to say the only thing that's keeping me alive is you
The only thing that's keeping me alive
But I can't say your name
I think I'll be okay

October 24, 2016

Someday, someday

Be patient, be tough
Someday, someday
This pain will be
Of use to you

It helps build character
Someday, someday
This pain will be
Of use to you

Someday you'll be
On the other side
Let her go
Someday, someday