AM

tired and awake
write words you really mean without mistake
push the pen until it doesn't work no more
it's empty outside the door

partially insane
roman candle come and guide me through the dark
i'll be walking through the horror i once knew
that wasn't really much

this isn't a long catastrophe
it's all just a passing phase you'll see
and though i am scared of the sun light
i'm not scared if you're the night

blanketed and bruised
stumblin' to find the light switch on the wall
if this feeling goes, i won't do it again
this time i swear it

this isn't a long catastrophe
it's all just a passing phase you'll see
and though i am scared of the sun light
i'm not scared if you're the night

i'm not scared if you're the night

Pictures Of You

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are
All I can feel

Remembering you
Standing quiet in the rain
As I ran to your heart to be near

And we kissed as the sky fell in
Holding you close
How I always held close in your fear

Remembering you
Running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow

And screamed at the make-believe
Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage
To let it all go

Remembering you
Fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart

You were stone white
So delicate
Lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark

Remembering you
How you used to be
Slow drowned
You were angels
So much more than everything

Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes
But I never see anything

If only I'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart
All my pictures of you

Looking so long at these pictures of you
But I never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true
But always just breaking apart
My pictures of you

There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you