This Bitter Pill

Walking away.
It's not the same as running.
Is it to you now that you've run in this ground.
And you say take this.
This medicine is just what you deserve.
Swallow, choke, and die.

And this bitter pill is leaving you
with such an angry mouth.
One that's void of all discretion
such an awful tearing sound.
With it's measure only equal by the power of my stare
glaring over you and over you this feeling of despair
is never wearing out.

It's wearing off
and it's leaving you with such a heavy heart
and a head to match.
The bottle is waiting
the cap is twisted begging to be used
and so are you.

I Miss You

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry.
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight.
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time.

And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides.

Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason.
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight.

Motionless

I'm bleeding misery. Oh, eternal discontent.
How consistent - the only thing stable in my life is how I try...

To still this beating mind, so that I can finally rest.
The essence of my character is that I'm unable to be without worrying.

The words of dead humans seem so much more sincere
than the half-signed contracts that tend to occupy the open air.

Still this beating mind, so that I can finally rest.
The essence of my character is that I'm unable to be without worrying.

Drugs Or Me

Her: "Stay with me. You're the one I need. You make the hardest things seem easy. Keep my heart somewhere drugs don't go, where the sunshine slows, always keep me close"

Me: "If only you could see the stranger next to me. You promise you promise that you're done but I can't tell you from the drugs."

Her: "Just let go. We'll dig a great big hole. Down an endless hole. We'll both go. You're so blind!
You can't save me this time. Hope comes from inside and I feel so low tonight."

Me: "If only you could see the stranger next to me. You promise you promise that you're done. But I can't tell you from the drugs. I wish that you could see this face in front of me. You're sorry you swear it you're done but I can't tell you from the drugs."

Her: "(take me) I need your help (so far away) To pull me up take the wheel (take me) Out from me
(so far) Out from me."

Her: "Take me"
Me: "If only you could see..."
Her: "I need your help"
Her: "So far away"
Me: "The stranger next to me..."
Her: "To pull me up take the pain"
Her: "Take me"
Me: "You promise you promise that you're done... "
Her: "Out from me"
Her: "So far"
Me: "But I can't tell you from the drugs"
Her: "Out from me"

Her: "Take me"
Me: "I wish that you could see... "
Her: "I need your help"
Her: "So far away"
Me: "This face in front of me"
Her: "To pull me up take the wheel"
Her: "Take me"
Me: "You're sorry you swear it you're done"
Her: "Out from me"
Her: "So far away"
Me: "But I can't tell you from the drugs"
Her: "Out from me"

Me: "Keep my heart somewhere drugs don't go. Where the sunshine slows. Always keep me close."

I love you Bean.

Sick, Sick, Sick

I curse to hell the magistrate who granted this unholy fate
But I know, I know I asked for this myself
I’m bound by law to hell and it’s sick, sick, sick
Humans have their needs, living in a fairytale, it’s tearing at the seams
The dank reject, the devil in a dress, exactly what you see

Sick, Sick, Sick, it’s sick, sick, sick

You made a mess of things
My what a mess you’ve made
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the way you make me
In your world it’s cold outside
So button up and open wide
I hate the way you make me feel sick, sick, sick

If memory serves me correct I gave you all, you gave me less
Your sexcapades deliver checks but can’t afford you self-respect
And it’s sick, sick, sick
Humans on their knees, living in a fairytale, it’s tearing at the seams
The dank reject, the devil in a dress, exactly what you see

Sick, Sick, Sick, it’s sick, sick, sick

Maybe love is looking for someone to fill up holes
We grow up building lies with holes in all our walls
The watch can fall but here you were with spare bricks to save the day
And we pray it’s not too late
Spare bricks can be dead weight

Sick, Sick, Sick, it’s sick, sick, sick

All for Nothing

I have given up the demons
I've made up a hundred reasons
I have turned my back on everything I knew
I have justified my actions
Been denied the satisfaction
I’ve believed and I've put away the truth

All to be with you

I have lost the inhibitions
I have felt a deep contrition
And I've realized there's still so much to do
I was lost inside my own lies
I felt victim and I thought I
Would never find the strength to do what I must do

All to be with you

I've been inside hell and out of
I've done things I'm less than proud of
I have only ever tried to get to you
I've lost everything and still have
Never given up until I either die
Or I will make it back to you

All to be with you

Kiss You to Death

Taking a ride down to your place
I'll be dropping by tonight
You'll hear me coming from miles away
Screaming banshees haunting my motorbike

Taking a ride down to your place
Dropping by in just a while
And I don't care if we fuck
Or if we talk
Or if we cry
I just miss you
I want to kiss you to death tonight

Kiss you to death tonight
Kiss you to death tonight

Taking a ride down to your place
And I haven't seen you in a while
I'm just taking out the trash
I miss your face, I miss your cat, I miss your smile
I want to kiss you to death tonight

Kiss you to death tonight
Kiss you to death tonight

You're in my heart
You're in my skull
You're in my blood
You're in my bones

You're in my heart
You're in my skull
You're in my blood
You're in my bones
Yeah

Kiss you to death tonight
Kiss you to death tonight
Kiss you to death tonight
Kiss you to death tonight

AM

tired and awake
write words you really mean without mistake
push the pen until it doesn't work no more
it's empty outside the door

partially insane
roman candle come and guide me through the dark
i'll be walking through the horror i once knew
that wasn't really much

this isn't a long catastrophe
it's all just a passing phase you'll see
and though i am scared of the sun light
i'm not scared if you're the night

blanketed and bruised
stumblin' to find the light switch on the wall
if this feeling goes, i won't do it again
this time i swear it

this isn't a long catastrophe
it's all just a passing phase you'll see
and though i am scared of the sun light
i'm not scared if you're the night

i'm not scared if you're the night

Pictures Of You

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are
All I can feel

Remembering you
Standing quiet in the rain
As I ran to your heart to be near

And we kissed as the sky fell in
Holding you close
How I always held close in your fear

Remembering you
Running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow

And screamed at the make-believe
Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage
To let it all go

Remembering you
Fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart

You were stone white
So delicate
Lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark

Remembering you
How you used to be
Slow drowned
You were angels
So much more than everything

Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes
But I never see anything

If only I'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart
All my pictures of you

Looking so long at these pictures of you
But I never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true
But always just breaking apart
My pictures of you

There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you

The Biggest Lie

The writing's on the wall, but no one cares at all
To convey the message that we wrote ourselves
Destroy the walls we mend and burn the candle at both ends

I really think we are
Becoming more mindless of the heart
Becoming everything we hate
Building our castles for the future
A Trojan horse is at the gate
Built by the enemy that we made

It's false sincerity, we hear celebrities
"Buy a hybrid if you can" with ten years of your food stamps
Caught myself listening to sheltered excuses for human beings

So it becomes elite
They separate then what have we got?
Nothing in common with their wealth
One clip can change public opinion
One sin can send you straight to hell
Learned how to lie and not get caught
More piss in the melting pot

Shut out majority with riches
Their words become more valuable
Then the voice of a million starving children
That they have a million ways to solve
Left freedom bleeding on the roadside,
We believe the biggest lie